It's been an emotional roller-coaster of a week

This week has been a very difficult one for me, emotionally. Not only am I really missing Florida but I feel like my patience is being tried from every angle. If this is a test, I am not sure I am going to pass. I know there are people out there who have it harder than I do (I'm praying for Lafayette right now), I get that, but sometimes you just have to get it all out and this week is my pity party.

I had two job rejections this week and probably a few more I haven;t even heard of yet or won't hear of because the company doesn't have time to send replies. We also got a lot of our bills from the Florida property and they were a lot higher than we expected (Realtors left lights and water on in the home and we are the ones who end up having to pay). We have zero income right now and no money. I do not know where the funds will come from to pay these bills or the ones we have coming from our time here. I am about to file for temporary assistance (when I said we had no money I meant it) but I'd rather not go that route. I read the long, drawn-out application and I don't want to spend half a day in the office filing it out and waiting for the money to come. I have faith.

I have never missed Florida more than I have this week. I miss having a house and job and two cars and food and our own bedrooms and a backyard for the dog to run in and all my connections and the free pool and all the fun, free stuff to do. Everything is more expensive here. Oh and I really miss the beaches! Our new community won't have a pool or amenities center. Our new house costs twice as much as our Florida one and it's about the same size. We sold one of our cars before we left so we are down to just 1: our 2007 Honda Pilot with hundreds of thousands of miles on it and a bad leak that we can afford to repair.

Now we find out Ben doesn't even have a school he can attend. DH was hoping he could take the boys to his school with him but 6th grade is full. Ben is on the wait list for a nice k-8 here but we haven't heard back yet. DH doesn't want him going to the school our community is zoned for because it has a below average rating. I really wish we were back in Florida, everything was so much easier and cheaper back there.

On a positive note, I did get 1 phone interview and unrelated, I got invited to visit CBS Denver next week and meet some of the staff. I am excited for that. It's not a job interview by any means but it will be cool to be back in a newsroom again, however briefly. It's a step in the right direction as I try to start over.

Also, one of the fun things we did get to do this week was the free admission day at the Denver Botanic Gardens. It's one of the top-ranked botanic gardens in the U.S. and it's easy to see why. The weather was great for a tiptoe through the tulips and watching the bunnies and bees move among the various flowers and plants. There were quite a few new additions since our last visit many years ago and the kids had fun checking everything out.  They also have some great concerts there this summer!  I recommend stopping by if you are ever in Denver.

Here's hoping something new blooms for me soon! Fingers crossed ...